Feeling kinda douchey...

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I don't think I'm one to sulk or vent much on here, but...
I just had a bit of a realisation.
All day long I have facebook on an extra tab, and I am constantly chattering away to my friends from my old school. I'm able to be completely relaxed and hyper and everything around them, it's great. <3
But here's the problem...
No one ever replies. ;^;
I see that they've seen my post, but when I scroll up all I see is my own posts throughout the day.
Am I being too clingy?
I think I'm being annoying... ;~;
What if they regard my posts but get annoyed because I never shut up or...
Gahhhhh...
I feel pretty douchey right about now. TT~TT
I'm almost worrying for all the friendships I've got outside the internet now...
I might just be going through a phase with this, I don't know...
The guys I hang around in my new school are more of acquaintances rather than friends. I barely ever talk to them and when I do it's always about something really un-interesting or about something I did the other day because I have no idea what interests we share, and each one always ends up awkwardly and I can't stop thinking of how much better I could have handled it.
I can almost never seem to start off or join a conversation at this school. The only times I have managed to get into a conversation with someone is when it's about my old school and the changes and things.
I also think I'm coming off as a bit of a douchebag because whenever I'm at school I'm always either really quiet or when I try to say something I attempt to be all chill and relaxed but then it makes my comment sound all snarky and shit.
And I keep thinking 'Oh god why did I say that I could have said that in 100 different better ways'.
;n;
God guys, I'm glad I can at least keep some kind of friendship online. ;u;
I love you allll, ahhhhh~ ;O;
I just gotta work harder at doing things the right way at school or what have you... ;~;

If you made it this far, here, have some cookie batter. ;u;

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XnUclEaR-LaZeRX's avatar
Gah I know how you feel ;n; I can never start a conversation x'DD